gratitude? i think that i am horrible at expressing it. there are a lot of things i want to say to people that i just never say because i’m worried about how it will come across. will they think i’m being genuine? will they think i’m being too corny and then not take me seriously even though i swear i am trying to be as earnest as i can?
i don’t… think i do a good job at expressing it.
not expressing gratitude, in the past, has often been used as a way to hold something over my head and because of that i feel resentful when i have to express it. like — what? you want me to say thank you for something you did for me absolutely every time i see you?
my head doesn’t work like that.
i am eternally grateful for every opportunity or kind thing someone does for me and i will let them know. i’ll thank them and i’ll try and think of ways i can show them kindness in the future.
tales from the cove 